Right or wrong?

Have you ever debated something in your mind and just can not seem to come to a conclusion? Have you ever researched scriptures thoroughly and heard hundreds of sermons/lessons on a subject, but still do not feel like something is spelled to clearly be a sin? 

When I say "clearly" a sin, I mean sins like lying, gossip, backbiting, murder, adultery, and so on. It seems like so often we hear messages about issues that are questionable, and I am not convinced the issue in question is a sin. What really bothers me though, is that the Bible makes it very clear that the things I mentioned above are wrong, yet we so often overlook gossip, backbiting, even "little white lies". Are we not just as responsible for the things we ignore and fail to obey as we are the bad or questionable things we do?

If you have been where I am talking about, you understand: There are millions of questions in your mind. If I do it, will I suddenly realize I have made an awful mistake, and it is wrong? If I do it, will people lose all confidence in me and never respect me again? Will they lose respect in me because they have been personally convicted on this issue and know without a shadow of a doubt that it is wrong, or because it is just what they have always been taught? Is there something wrong with me since I do not see a clear answer and so many others seem to? Should I not even have these questions? Should I be ready to accept whatever is taught to me without any reluctance?

Before someone gets the bright idea that I am about to go have an affair, go join a nudist colony, or anything of the sort, forget it. Also, if you are thinking that I am downing my pastor in any way, you are wrong. He has a common-sense approach to many issues.

I just want my own convictions. I want to know what I believe and why--Not because "that's my religion".

I got a job!!!

A while back I took a test at the personnel board, and I was pretty sure I aced it. Anyway, I got the results a little over a week ago, and I was like, "Aww, I didn't do as good as I thought". But what I had forgotten is that the scoring is based on the test results + experience/education. So, I did do really good on the test.

I said all the above to say this:  Within a week I had 15 agencies contact me for an interview! I was offered a job on the first interview I went to, and accepted. You're looking at the newest Office Assistant for the ****** ****** *** ******! (bleeped for privacy's sake)

I am really thankful for this job. It's a government job which means great benefits, plus decent pay!!!

Anyway, I just want to thank everyone who has been praying for me. God knew exactly what I needed.

*sigh*

I wanna write! I wanna write! I wanna write!

Sometime I want to write SO BAD, but it's like the words are just stuck on the tips of my fingers. I start typing, and nothing comes out. I get an inspiration, and the inspiration is only a sentence. I mean, I had this AWESOME idea for a post/rant/entry: "Your box doesn't fit"--Talking about people assuming things about you, trying to fit you into their little box. But alas; the words would not flow. And they have to, you know (flow).

I wonder if I could make a career out of writing about writing... Ranting about writing? It's an idea.

So, I really really REALLY like to write (I know you're not supposed to use "really", or contractions), but I have no idea WHAT to write. I would absolutely love to write a mystery/comedy. I'm just not sure if I have the imagination, patience, or knowledge to write a book. And if I did, would it get published? Most likely not. There are millions out there that are better, I'm sure.

Ok. Now I have convinced myself: I will never be a great writer. I will never impress everyone with my amazing mind. I'm just a blundering blogger.

See, you have to think this way. If you're always expecting good things, you'll be bowled over by the bad things that happen to you. However, if you look for the bad, you'll be pleasantly surprised by the good!  That's my motto. Who am I to be giving advice, though? What do I think I am?!? A wannabe writer. That's what. And proud of it. Yep. Just don't tell anyone.

Ouch!

Currently Reading Miss Julia's School of Beauty By Ann B. Ross see related

I'm tempted to not even post today... Seems like I haven't had much to say lately. Remember the days of the "mixed nuts" posts? The "Forgive" essay??? Sometimes I feel like writing funny stuff, and sometimes I have something serious to say. Lately I haven't had anything to say, though. Weird.  Wonder what that should tell me about myself?

Oh, well. I guess everyone goes through a "dry" spell. Probably has something to do with how content a person is with their job, home-life, and spiritual life (not that I'm not content with Dennis or God). Anyway. The big question here is: If you have nothing to say, should you write?

I mean, should I really tell everyone what has been going on in my life? Like, "I went to Winn-Dixie today and bought 2 lbs. of hamburger meat, 1 12-pack of Dr. Something-or-the-other, and 1 package of toilet paper." Hello?!? How interesting is that? Do people really care about my personal life? I don't think so. At least not to that extent!

Aight. So, if I'm not writing about my personal life, then it has to issues. Except, I don't like politics!  (I know, I know... Major sin) Which means that generally, when I write about an issue, I have been inspired by something or someone, whether it be good or bad. And do you know what that means? I won't be writing often.

100,203,348 Subscribers:  Don't be discouraged. I'll find a solution to my problems.

And until then... Today I went to the Mobile Flea Market (The South's Largest), Goody's, Old Navy, Marble Slab Creamery (got apple pie a la mode), and Winn Dixie (toilet paper, Kraft sliced cheese, Dr. Something-or-the-other, hamburger meat, and Sara Lee bread). Just so you know.